"My father would punch me if he heard me say I meditate now." - Me.
Over the last few months I have felt scrambled. Throughout life I always had a clear path and something I was striving for. I have no idea why but over the course of the last few months I hit a bunch of bumps in the road that put me in an out of control tail-spin-funk. I am pretty good at keeping it together and dropping my emotions at the door, but I guess it all caught up to me. I decided to reach out for help. I chatted with some close family and friend (only) at first. It seemed like they all said them same thing, like a recurring theme...I need to talk more and stop trying to do a million things at once. Fair enough. Then I did something completely out of the ordinary for me, or anyone I have ever met. I started meditating.
What the hell does that even me? Right? That's some hippy-dippy California bullshit, at least that's what I thought...and I am pretty sure most people in my life would say. There was definitely a blue collar voice softly speaking in the back of my head staying "Grab a beer and stop whining!" I much as I paid attention to it I did start looking for another solution.
I am always trying to improve myself or find a new mentor or book to pull some new piece of knowledge I can implement into my life. After reading a few and listening to some podcasts another recurring theme came up from these TedTalk-esk, pseudo-entrepreneurs...they meditate...and set controlled routines. Since I don't have the money to fly across the world (but hopefully very soon) to get some crazy tea and then chill with a monk somewhere in Tibet (much like their routines) at least I could afford meditation. It's free right? You just kind of sit there? Don't move? Just sit? I think I can afford that, even on my salary and living one of the worlds most expensive cities (F*ck you LA and your never ending parking tickets).
I found out it is a lot harder than I thought it would be. Sitting trying to clear a mind that races a million miles a minute about issues that may (but definitely don't) or may not matter (they definitely don't) is a real challenge. Over the course of the last few weeks as I have work and tried harder to clear my head to focus on how I am really feeling. It has helped me sort out or organize all the time-wasting things I thought were vital to my day. I have found a sort of power in removing the junk in my life that does not matter and simplifying. I have stripped things down and am getting back to being proactive instead of reactive.
Below I attached 2 meditation apps that I am using and encourage you to try, even for a week to see if it helps you at all...or maybe I am just turning into a hippie, California nut. Lord, I hope not. Sorry, Dad.